Notes From Me To You November 19, 2022

Feeling Empty; Grief and Remaining Hopeful

Last year when I wrote Grief And Hope I would never have imagined that I would be dealing with this level of grief in my life. On October 2, 2022, my mama passed away, (I will write more about my mama at a later time). Each time I say or type “my mama passed away,” I feel empty.

I would be lying if I said that I was not struggling. This week, I talked with friends about the difficulties of grieving. That is one thing I will continue to do: share how I am feeling.

Since October 2nd, my sleep pattern has been off, even after traveling to California and returning home to the Carolinas. I still struggle to get good rest. On the nights when I do get a good night’s sleep, I am so thankful. Rest is important, as is going through each stage of the grief process.

I wish I knew how long each part of the grieving process would last, and I wish I knew when a certain part of the grieving process that I thought had passed would return. I wish I was not grieving, but that is an unrealistic wish. Even with having gone down this path before and knowing it is a part of life and it will happen again, it is still tough, and it still sucks.

Yesterday I said, “I am in the angry phase of grief,” and I meant it and felt it. This past week, I had to adjust my attitude more than a few times and regroup. In the middle of all of this, I am reminding myself to always look for the good things, the…